I have not been writing regularly which was very much attributed to the unexciting life that I have been having the last few months. 

I finally tendered again and I swear I am not taking it back already. Obviously, this is not a good time to quit without a job in the current job market. I reckon it should take me some time to get one with x'mas and cny back to back. Seriously, the more I think and worry, its not going to bring me anywhere. I need to have family planning soon but with the current workplace, its not going to help. Hence, I need to find a job so I have time to settle in and think proper for family planning. 

I am totally exhausted, more of mentally. Office politics, unhelpful team, unreasonable overseas colleagues and bosses that make you go stressful for no reason. Funny thing is, I did not regret joining this place. I learnt a lot, not in the technical aspect but more of realising the extreme human behaviors. Of course, still thankful to my boss who brought me in. She told me she regretted joining and for my regret, I should have given myself more choices when I decided to leave my previous company. 

I don't have much career luck. I don't need a career but a job/company that can place my interest - work life balance.